I am crying as I write this.
I am also learning. I am learning that real strength means having the courage to Love like God even at the risk of being hurt.
I hope someone can relate to this. I have been through a lot in my life. There has been so much heartache that my heart no longer Loved. For years I was unable to cry. I had shut myself off completely. My heart was a stone.
I have recently discovered a much better way. The way of Love and peace. Every day God teaches me something else about this new life. God even gave me back my heart and gave me a joy in helping and Loving those around me.
But truly Loving people makes me vulnerable. People are often cruel, hateful, and perfectly crazy. I know they have their own issues, but that doesn’t take away the pain they cause.
I would never ever want to go back to the way I was. So I will just deal with being sensitive.
I will continue to Love people, and care about them, because that is who I am now.
I am sure I will get my heart broke, but I will just learn to add that aspect into my life.
I may feel pain, but I will go on because I also feel joy, peace, and Love without limits.
I pray for the people who have tried to break me. They may try again tomorrow. Tomorrow, I will be the same. I may cry some more, but I will pray for them again.
I’m not sure what God is trying to teach me, but I think it has to do with faith. I will be faithful to the true heart he has given me. I know he holds my heart even when it is broken. I will have faith to know that everything is working for my good.
Please help me to bless those who have hurt me.
Let me feel your goodness and Love in every situation.
More than anything, please, please, don’t let me wake up tomorrow with anger and resentment in my heart.
I know you are with me. I know you are crafting me into the woman I was born to be. I know that some lessons are learned through struggle.
Open my eyes, my ears, and my heart that I may understand your ways.
I surrender my path to you.