I have made terrible decisions. I have allowed my fears and addictions to get the best of me. There were times when the remorse over my actions was overwhelming. I felt emotionally, mentally, and even physically crippled. The pain was paralyzing.
Then something magical happened. I looked at my past objectively and thoroughly. Then I made a list of everything that I had done, or allowed to be done, and even the things that I didn’t do, but should have. It was long.
When I felt like it was complete, I read each item slowly, and prayerfully, said “I forgive you. You were doing the best you could with what you had to work with at the time.”
Then I put a match to the whole mess and watched my guilt and shame go up in smoke. I just let it go. It is difficult to explain the weight that was lifted from me.
I don’t mean to oversimplify this issue. I don’t know your story, and some of us have big, complex, traumatic things to overcome, but I do know one thing for sure.
There is a seed of Love inside you. It Loves you because of who you are. You are Loved. Period. Incredibly, amazing, unconditionally Loved. It doesn’t matter what you have done. You are Loved. Really Loved. It doesn’t matter what that person said about you or who made you believe you were unlovable. You carry within you a Loving force that is bigger than that knot in your chest. That divine Love cherished you before, during, and after all that bad stuff happened, and it will never stop.
This is not just for the big things, either. I forgive myself all the time. I remind myself daily that I am still learning and growing. I will make mistakes. I will be weak or selfish or lazy or even cruel on occasion. Sometimes I need to ask forgiveness from others. These things happen because I am a student of life. When they do, I forgive myself, try to learn something and move on.
I encourage you to adopt an attitude of self-forgiveness. It will open up pathways of light and Love beyond your imagination.
Have a beautiful, blessed week. I Love you all!