Okay, God I need help. I keep reading things that say the Universe will give me anything I want if I focus the right thoughts/energy on my intentions. All of this seems like some hocus-pocus nonsense. Okay, maybe not nonsense, but maybe it’s a secret code that I just can’t crack.
Or maybe I have so many unconscious negative thoughts, that I’ve built iron gates of unbelief in my mind. I’m just looking for the key.
Don’t get me wrong. I am not unhappy. Grace has landed me in a patch of sunshine, rainbows and unicorns compared to where I used to be.
I just feel stuck. What I need is a shift in my life. The job I have is making me older than my years.
God, I know that you have a plan for me. I am waiting. Is there not something that I can do? How do I participate in this process? I know I am impatient. I guess I am also confused. And tired. Really, really, tired.
I don’t really get the manifesting thing, but I do know one thing.
What I think about the most is what expands. When I worry, I create more fear. When I focus on my family, I feel more Love in my life.
But I’m pretty sure I could recite Law of Attraction affirmations until my lips crack and bleed and I still wouldn’t see the benefit. I’m not saying it doesn’t work. I’m just saying it doesn’t ring true for me.
How can I change my thinking, improve my life, and set my intentions in a way that seems real? Hmm.
Every time a dark thought comes into my mind, I need to combat it with something positive. Words have power. For me, certain sets of words or more powerful than others. The Bible, for example, at least for me is very powerful. I will choose an affirmation from the Bible.
Furthermore, I will back it up with the intention of something I want.
“Delight yourself in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart.”
This is so great. First of all, “delight yourself”.
Just be happy. When I’m worried, I will just remind myself to be happy. When I am frustrated, stressed, tired, whatever, just be happy. I know that’s much easier said than done, that’s where the next phrase comes in. “…in the Lord.”
I know that I carry around inside me a spark. It is a bit of my Creator. It is Love. It is a seed of joy and peace. I just have to remember to access it. That’s the trick. I just have to remember to access it. I just need to remember that God has the power to make me happy in any situation. If I can just keep that thought in the front of my mind, even when times are hard, I think that might change things.
How will it change? God will give me the desires of my heart.
What do I desire? Okay, let’s be clear about this. Will God give me anything I want? That’s what it says.
What do I want?
I want to leave my current job in a factory and be a full-time writer.
Today I begin a new habit.
I will delight myself in the Lord. When I am sad, I will delight myself in the Lord. When I am exhausted, I will delight myself in the Lord. When I get irritated or frustrated or discouraged, I will delight myself in the Lord.
…and He will give me the desires of my heart.
I suspect this is about faithfulness. It is about believing.
Just keep believing.
Just keep believing.
I come to you with an expectant heart.
I will delight myself in you, because you are my joy.
You are my grace and the breath in my lungs.
I delight myself in you because you have a beautiful plan for my life.
I delight myself in you because without you, I am nothing.
I delight myself in you because you have made my way straight, even when I can’t see it.
Thank you for being with me. I will carry you with me in every situation. I will replace temptation and impatience with your peace and joy.